XIII - Nobody

I hear the darkness call me
Don't care what everyone else thinks
I want to float free
Let the memories fade away
Take you away
Like leaves in a restless wind
Frozen heart
Where did the feelings go?
Can't feel like I used to
I try to find out who I am
All is lost in this world
I don't feel like finding out why
Trying to breathe is optional
Trying to live is a must
I have to keep my grip on this earth tight
I feel violated, conned
Outsmarted for once
Deception and lies
Cover my life all over
I can't breathe right or feel myself
And no one hears me
Scars show me there's nothing to fear
Believe in a revolution that will happen
And it will go as planned
I can't feel pain because I'm dead
Inside and out
The moon shines down on you all
Except on me and my accursed shadow
I don't give a shit about before
I'm living for today
But now that everyone's passing me by
I have to kick it up a notch
The dying flames whisper my fate
Rising from the ashes, my past burns
My future glows bright
But can these scars tell me if I'll still be here?
Never wanted to get passed the crossfire
I want to run away from it all
But duty calls--I must fight
To bring it all back
Because I'm drowning in my misery
I can't fight this pain
I can't deny these feelings--but I can't feel
What is real?
Like the ocean in front of me?
Everything is not real
It's like time, slipping quietly away
Make the use of it
For time foes by without your knowledge
Keep waiting and what you desire will slip away
Grasp hard to fate
Learn how to fight
Make a trickery out of your life
You'll feel something
That will replace the addiction in your soul
Hope is in a faraway place now
I'll never see it again--I look towards fate
The fields are turning red
Petals of enemies fly
I leave them to die
They can't see right through these wilted eyes
They're all fools
The blood stings my blade
I sway around the chaos
And lay surrounded by harmony
Is this why I still exist?
The storm is coming
Head for cover if you can
I care about your pain
And I don't care about mine
It's all about trying to make you suffer
I'm not being sadistic--it makes me ecstatic
I love insanity
Especially from your screaming
It sounds like an euphoria of havoc
It feels like a pulse resonating through me again
I could feel when I'm shocked
If I don't, my soul dies
Life shrouded in twilight
I'm breaking down
Who am I?
What's my purpose?
My life is nothing but a memory
To another
The city haunts my soul, reminding me of before
My place in this world is gone
I must fight for my existence
Fight for what's left of me
I want to see the light
But I am part of the dark
This is the life of a Nobody.