Fifty-Three - Chores

(Current Time: 10:51 Am, Afternoon)
(Current Sounds: My mom bitching (not allowed headphones apparently at home))

Musings/Writing Prompt:

I hate my family life. Either I must be a very spoiled kid or my mom is testing me so hard enough to get through the nastiness of life. I DON'T know what she wants--but whatever it is, my patience is thoroughly starting to kill me from the inside.

My counselor, Siobhan, once told me to keep telling myself this phrase whenever someone told me I wasn't good enough--"I love myself no matter what I do, or what I believe in."

Good god. This phrase must be running 24/7 on my head whenever my mom's around me.

I don't know WHAT she wants. I try to do household laundry but sometimes she tells me things that I'm not aware about, stating in this sentence, "You SHOULD know by now, because you're an adult." How can I talk back when she apparently gave herself the 'Head' of the house?

She also makes me feel bad about my over-the-top stress. She says I have to discipline myself even when I'm doing. What the hell do you want from me? I'm already trying to to do enough effort as it is. And then she questions my abilities, thinking I can 'do better.' How can one deal with that everyday?! "Do better!" How?! I'm trying to do the job anyways, so why give me more to think about?

And just the way she sounds whenever she asks for our undivided attention. It fucking annoys me to no end. SHE thinks I'm being interrupted whenever she asks for a task. I just want to be left alone for my work--if I screw up this year, its going to me MY fault, not hers. I just hate it when she thinks she's taking all the fucking credit for herself, thinking that I never do anything. And she doesn't realize that I'm TRYING to work but she fucking interrupts me! Its a cycle I'm particularly keen on breaking.

God.

This is why I don't do weekend blogs. So, for this prompt episode, I'll be writing something VERY similar to this situation today.

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"What is the worst thing parents can do to their children?"

To not have any belief in their abilities.

A parent should be able to hold confidence in their kids, no matter what they do. They should know what their child's potential is, but they shouldn't judge it on their general mindset alone. Parents should be proud of their children from whatever they do for themselves, not slave them away to make the image the parents were visioning them to be.

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Any hints to improve my prompts? I know they should be longer...

~kiwi